I wish I was better able to communicate with people. I find that, sometimes, it is easier for me to be in a shell than to open up and talk to people. Unfortunately, that occurs during interactions with my wife during stressful times. The net effect of this is that I allow myself to be placed in situations that are not healthy for me, my wife or our relationship. I am working to overcome this but it is a challenging task.
Often I find myself losing track of conversations and drifting off to thoughts of everything and nothing at the same time when I should be paying attention to the conversation that I am having. It typically has a detrimental impact on the conversation as I am not participating at the level that I should. I try to listen actively and ask questions to make sure that I am staying engaged and catching all the key parts that I should but even that becomes difficult.
It is most difficult for my wife to handle and I am very proud of her for putting up with me and all the baggage that I have. I can't imagine what life would be like without her. Thanks Love!